Today, what is Sad, Feeling or showing unhappiness or regret, that is such a clean and precise definition for what can really bog people down when they are trying to wade through homelessness back to self-sufficiency again. We do not often think of being sad as that profound a situation or issue, but if you are filed with something that is causing regret, a part of sadness, then that is another issue altogether. We regret when our coffee is not fresh enough, but imagine regretting a decision that ultimately landed you on the streets…sadness
Simply Sad, Sadness that Releases Darkness…
Y’all know that sad that tears, the burning hot tears does not even relieve? That is what I am feeling right now, it is a dark place, this sad place, there is no light here, most of you only visit here occasionally, but we, the invisible ones often live here.
Sadness is my friend that one thing that hits us all when we hit the streets and have lost everything that once made us feel like humans, and for one am just tired and this sadness won’t leave. Out here, us invisible ones, we can’t sit still long enough to rest, we can’t fall asleep peacefully, and I fuss so much more, but not today. Sad is just Sorrow, Anger and Desperation, that is what sad is and it is how I am feeling, party or no today.
Dave are you ready for today, maybe today we can actually forget for about an hour or two what is going on our here. Bah Hum Bug! Forget, why forget, nothing changes, nothing gets better, even those who come out don’t understand, they don’t. You have had too much eggnog dude. We actually get food that is fresh, not throw away and fresh socks and bags, and you are acting by a fuss budget, you are really, really sad, aren’t you? Yup, I am.
Listen Howard, I hate this time of year, I truly hate it so much. Whoa, wait a minute what is going on, why do you hate it so much, what has happened? It is at this time of year more then any other, Thanksgiving to New Year, when everybody thinks about doing good to another but then come January 1st, everything clicks back to normal, and we are forgotten. I call it the ‘do gooder season,’ but in the end the only benefit is really to the do gooders who come out, because no matter what nothing changes for us.
Okay we get fresh clothes, we get new shoes, more and often better food, and more people are actually nice and don’t yell at us and call us names, but where are the real gifts that can change lives, where are those? John, Don, Frank are still dead in the past two weeks, they could handle the pressure, the sadness another holiday season. We still go out of the party and sleep on the hard, cold dirt wherever we can hide, yea, merry Christmas. The sadness in me is like a bitterness that nothing can wash away, I am just done, this sadness hurts so much.
See, I want a real Christmas gift, I want a fresh start, I want a real chance to get off this darn marry go round and take another shot at life.
But, Dave, today can be that break from the bitter dregs of reality that have been bringing those tears and can offer some light into that darkness and give you a chance to slow that merry go round for a while. What do you think, let’s go and find where the gathering is for us folks and join in, and see what happens.
Oh, I am going, because I plan on eating, but that does not mean I will be happy while I am there, the pain is too deep. Besides it is fun to watch them come together to care for us, some are really good folks. And, yeah, maybe one day the sadness will leave, I can only hope so, but right now I can’t this, life hurts and the holidays make it that much more tough when you have to sleep on the dirt after a nice party.
Will You Continue to be Okay with Us Being Sad—To Death
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Will You Simply Be Our Hero, Deliver Hope
